Grammy-winning rapper Eminem opens up and reveals his fear of dying in the new August/September VIBE.
In his cover feature, Em recalls being rushed to the hospital a few years ago after nearly overdosing from drugs.
“Yeah, I do,” Em said when asked if he thinks about his own death. “A lot. I think about it a lot. I try not to think about it but I do and it creeps me the f*ck out. It creeps me out because they say that if I got to the hospital two hours later then I would be gone. I think about that a lot. When I lay in bed at night is when I think about it the most. It creeps me out man.” (VIBE)
Em recently said he concealed drug addiction to save his rap image.
“It took me awhile to admit I actually did have a problem,” the musician said. “In the hip-hop world that I live in, it can be mistaken for weakness and the last thing you want to do in hip-hop is admit that you’re weak. But if I didn’t admit I was weak with this certain thing I was going to die.” When asked how close he was to death, the artist responded that he “was certainly a couple of hours away from death,” adding that he “overdosed and almost died.” But he pulled himself back from the brink and re-entered rehab with a more honest, committed attitude: “I had to admit I had a problem. I had to do it for myself,” Eminem said. (CNN)
Last January, music veteran Elton John revealed he was helping Em fight through drug addiction.
“I’ve been helping Eminem over the last 18 months and he’s doing brilliantly,” John says, reports the British Press Association. Speaking to BBC Radio 5 in the U.K. on Saturday, Sir Elton, 62, who has freely spoken about his own past issues with substance abuse, said: “I’m there if people want my help. If people ask for help you tell them where to go but there’s no point advising people if they don’t want to do it.” (PEOPLE)
In a past interview, the rapper said drugs forced his transition into producing.
“I wasn’t ready to give up drugs,” Em explained. “I didn’t really think I had a problem…I felt like I wanted to pull back, because my drug problem had got so bad. I felt like, maybe if I take a break, maybe this will help. I started to get into the producer role more.” (XXL Magazine)
The August/September VIBE drops Monday, August 16th.
Check out Eminem speaking on his past drug addiction down below: