Incarcerated rapper Remy Ma has broken her silence behind bars and updated fans on what life has been like for her over the past year.
In addition to the prison limitations, Remy also spoke on the effect her time in the penal system has had on her well-being.
“I rarely listen to the radio because it’s sort of depressing,” Remy wrote in a letter. “Not being able to record is stressful not because I’m a rapper but because that was my way of venting and expressing myself. So I write a lot! So much that now I have a callous on my finger from holding a pen…Not being able to go somewhere when you want, see your family when you want (on many occasions when you need to), can’t use the phone, take a shower, wear clothes, or even eat when you want – super aggravating. Whenever, which is almost everyday I get visits, a lot of kids ask for autographs. It’s something that I used to do almost everyday but now it actually feels weird, I really feel like an inmate…Everyone in prison isn’t innocent but everyone in prison isn’t guilty. So whether you end up here on purpose or by accident, the pain you’re feeling is still the same. And I can quote a lot ‘gangsters’ by saying that ‘I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.'” (Global Grind)
Similarly, Foxy Brown wrote a blog entry earlier this year and spoke on her time being locked up at Riker’s Island prison last year.
“On Riker’s Island,” she wrote. “Looking at an eight-month bid. Since Shyne got 9, hip-hop’s been on trial…It was during those 23 hours, EVERYDAY, that I looked long and hard at myself. Who I was…from young Inga to Foxy Brown to a number on a docket…I learned to be grateful…grateful to be given another chance. And now I just got to show and prove…not to the world, but to myself.” (SOHH)
Lil Kim recently announced plans to release a tell-all book called The Price of Loyalty which will focus on her time behind bars in 2005.
“It’s about the time when I stayed in prison, the things I learned and went through,” she explained. “You don’t think about things until it happens to you. The book is going to give people who have been in those situations a bright outlook on life…I haven’t gotten into the studio with the producers that I really want to be in the studio with…I just want to get the perfect song and maybe in a couple weeks, release something.” (OK Magazine)
Remy received an eight-year sentence in May 2008.
The former Terror Squad member turned herself in to New York police in July 2007 for the shooting of Joseph outside a nightclub. Remy was later sentenced to an eight year bid last May and is currently beind held at the Bedford Hills Correctional Facility for Women in Bedford Hills. (TMZ)