G-Dep’s Wife Inks Emotional Open Letter, “No One Can Understand The Pain I Felt In My Heart”

G-Dep’s Wife Inks Emotional Open Letter, “No One Can Understand The Pain I Felt In My Heart”

Nearly two months after incarcerated rapper G-Dep turned down a guilty plea deal in his 1993 fatal shooting case, the former Bad Boy Records artist’s wife has come forward with an open letter.

Within the letter, Dep’s wife Crystal Sutton describes how difficult the past year has been for her and their children.

“I have attempted to write before but I was too filled with emotion, so my writing was more like an attack on the people my husband kept in his circle. I can’t say things are crystal clear for me now but I have been told writing can be therapeutic. I am not looking for anyone to identify with me but to understand. Stay positive. How? I go to church, I pray, I have faith in God but the doubt still comes into my mind. How do I push it out of my mind with the possibility that my husband may spend a large amount of time behind bars… time away from his sons. My tears are not just for my husband but for my sons that may never get to know what it is like to have a father around. Sure, as a strong black African-American woman, I have to hold things down and I will, but boys need a male figure. As a woman I cannot truly teach my sons what it is to be a man, I can only teach them the idea of what I think it is to be one.” (VIBE)

She also used the letter to confirm Dep’s usage of drugs upon admitting his role in the 1993 shooting from a police precinct last year.

“It’s hard to stay positive when the DA delivers a blow, the maximum sentence, no deal. No one can understand the pain I felt in my heart, the tears I shed when I heard. To some its just a story–words on paper, something to tweet about, mention on Facebook or joke about on a morning show. But now my sons (our sons) have become a statistic in a very public way, of things my husband rhymed about, for entertainment purpose (value), but it was his real life, Everyday. At least once in our lives we have gotten drunk or high and made a poor decision. Trevell was on PCP, it was quoted that he was high when in walked into the precinct. Now knowing how powerful a hallucinator PCP (dust) is (only from taking my husband to different rehabs and reading about it) why is everyone so convinced of “his confession.” By no means in writing this blog am I discounting that Mr. John Henkel‘s life was unfairly and abruptly ended. I am not discounting that he has a family that grieved 20 years ago and now has to grieve again. I am aware that Mr. Henkel had or has, a mother, a brother, and friends that loved him. He had a life, a life that someone took. It’s just a terrible situation for all.” (VIBE)

In September, Dep turned down an opportunity to plead guilty.

The 36-year-old turned himself in to clear his conscience of shooting a man in an attempted robbery, only to later learn that the attack was fatal. The DA’s office said it would only offer a plea deal for the top count – murder in the second degree – which could put him behind bars for 25 years to life. It is my understanding that the parties have not been able to reach an agreement,” Manhattan Supreme Court Justice Michael Obus said. “The people are not willing to offer anything other than a plea to the [top count].” A trial date is set for November 10th. (Hip Hop DX)

Over the summer, Dep reflected on confessing to the early 1990’s shooting from a Rikers Island jail.

“Thinking about that day, that whole situation, that incident right there when I went into the precinct,” Dep says. “That was a real shock. I knew I probably would have to do maybe some time or something was going to be investigated or something like that. But when the detective came back in and said the guy died, it kinda just changed everything.” (XXL Mag)

On December 15, 2010, G-Dep walked into a police precinct to turn himself in and confessed to shooting a man, not knowing he had died, in 1993.

Check out some past G-Dep footage below:

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