News: Kanye West Reveals His Internal Struggles, "I Feel God's Light Shining Through My Darkest Year Of My Life"
Thursday, Aug 5, 2010 12:56PM
Grammy-winning rapper Kanye West has opened up about his past internal struggles and how pain has helped him become the man he is today.
Writing on Twitter, West said this past year has been his most difficult.
"People ar so scared of pain hurt and embarrassment that no one takes risk anymore ... I've made so many mistakes that made me better today," Kanye wrote Thursday (August 5).
"I've been hurt and embarrassed but I still believe in good will. Give of yourself with no fear and one day he'll have you in the clear."
"He returns the blessings you give 10 fold. I feel God's light shining through my darkest year of my life and career. I feel the glow again."
"I will be a better man, friend, role model, citizen, blogger, tweeter, artist, creator, giver, thinker, motivator and person. IFEELTHEGLOW." (Kanye West's Twitter)
Last year, West was scolded by rappers and entertainers for disrupting country singer Tayor Swift's awards acceptance speech at the Video Music Awards 2009.
"Taylor Swift is great and is new at that point and you can't replace it. Even an apology can't replace what it feels like for the very first time receiving that award," rapper 50 Cent said about her being disrupted. "Now in her head, 'My first award was Kanye West.' And it's damaging, I wish he would come take one of my awards so I can black his eye and in front of everybody..." (Much Music)
Originally posted on Ye's blog, the rapper later apologized and shared his admiration he has towards Swift's talent.
"I'M SOOOOOO SORRY TO TAYLOR SWIFT AND HER FANS AND HER MOM," Yeezy wrote. "I SPOKE TO HER MOTHER RIGHT AFTER AND SHE SAID THE SAME THING MY MOTHER WOULD'VE SAID SHE IS VERY TALENTED! I LIKE THE LYRICS ABOUT BEING A CHEERLEADER AND SHE'S IN THE BLEACHERS! ................... I'M IN THE WRONG FOR GOING ON STAGE AND TAKING AWAY FROM HER MOMENT!...............BEYONCE'S VIDEO WAS THE BEST OF THIS DECADE!!!! I'M SORRY TO MY FANS IF I LET YOU GUYS DOWN!!!! I'M SORRY TO MY FRIENDS AT MTV. I WILL APOLOGIZE TO TAYLOR 2MRW. WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD!!!! EVERYBODY WANNA BOOOO ME BUT I'M A FAN OF REAL POP CULTURE!!! NO DISRESPECT BUT WE WATCHIN' THE SHOW AT THE CRIB RIGHT NOW CAUSE .. WELL YOU KNOW!!!!! I'M STILL HAPPY FOR TAYLOR!!!! BOOOYAAWWWW!!!! YOU ARE VERY VERY TALENTED!!!! I GAVE MY AWARDS TO OUTKAST WHEN THEY DESERVED IT OVER ME... THAT'S WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!! I'M NOT CRAZY YALL, IM JUST REAL. SORRY FOR THAT!!! I REALLY FEEL BAD FOR TAYLOR AND I'M SINCERELY SORRY!!! MUCH RESPECT." (You Heard That New)
As of late, West has begun making a comeback into the spotlight with nationwide performances at the headquarters of Rolling Stone, Facebook and Twitter.
Kanye West's tour of Silicon Valley continued. After meeting withFacebook on Tuesday, the newest celebrity to join Twitter stopped by the micro-blogging service's headquarters for a visit that included him rapping new material from his as-yet-untitled album. "I admit my first watch was a Fossil, now I'm in the Louvre looking for fossils." "Lyrically can't none of ya'll murder 'Ye 'cause y'all raps ain't got no vertebrae/ And we all know the beats is like a mix between Fergie and Jesus." (Rap-Up)