Guest Star: "After Big Phil Died, T.I. Felt Really Paranoid & Nervous About Almost Everyone" -Toure
Thursday, Jul 15, 2010 1:15PM
T.I.'s homie, Big Phil, who was his man from childhood was killed in Cincinnati and that really hurt him and he felt really guilty because he wasn't able to do something.
And after that, he felt really paranoid and nervous about almost everyone coming up on him on the street and talking to him and rolling up next to him at the light. So that's what really led him to acquire all these unlicensed weapons and led him to go to jail.
T.I. had some really deep, emotional, psychological things to work through in terms of dealing with strangers approaching you and knowing you as a famous person and the paranoia that might go along with that. And then he had the guilt of being there when your man gets killed and they're trying to kill you and they get him. T.I. said to me, "If I had had a gun, it wouldn't have gone down like that."
I think that really opened his eyes and that's what made him say, "You know, I'm never going to get myself into this situation again." I think he really learned and took a lot from that situation and made the changes he felt were necessary.
So T.I. really had to rearrange himself emotionally after that situation. And I think that taking care of himself emotionally dealing with Phil had a much bigger impact than when he went to jail because this is a man who's already been there before. So that's not a huge experience for him.
Toure is an American novelist, music journalist, cultural critic, and television personality based in New York City. He is a contributor to MSNBC's the Dylan Ratigan Show and the host of the Hip Hop Shop and On the Record on Fuse TV.