News: Alfamega Puts DEA Talk Behind, Drops "I Apologize" [Audio]
Sunday, Jul 12, 2009 12:00PM
After months of controversy surrounding former Grand Hustle associate Alfamega and his alleged DEA past records, the rapper has released a new song called "I Apologize."
The rapper's latest music features him speaking on past mistakes and accepting the blame for people who have led a life of crime and suffered the consequences.
"I beg every mother to forgive my sins," he raps. "Not once, not twice, but over and over again/I come to you humbly to make amends/'Cause I have destroyed, the sons and mens/My selfish ways has blackened their heart/Turned 'em into monsters, lurk in the dark...I destroyed so much, please forgive me lord/And listen your honor, it's not his fault/You can't blame him for that body he caught/He was just reacting to what I taught/So give me his life sentence, and let him walk." ("I Apolgoize")
Alfa also released a statement which addressed the song's seriousness.
"This song, is an apology to anyone from age 8 to 80, that's affiliated with or in any gang," he wrote. "To every parent (mother or father) that has lost a child to gang violence, every sister, brother, aunt, uncle, cousin, partner or whomever that has lost a loved one or a friend to gang violence either by death or prison. Even if I never met you or have known you personally, I want to apologize for being the root of the evil that is plaguing the youth of today, & I beg you for forgiveness the same way i would beg GOD to forgive me for every sin that i have committed, because i am 37 years old now, & i have finally become to realize by watching my own children that i wasn't teaching something positive i was only teaching negatively." (2DopeBoyz)
He recently broke his silence on his departure from T.I.'s camp and rumors about being a DEA informant.
"I caught a case, pleaded guilty," Alfa said about his 1990's arrest. "Received my time. I was doing my time. All the extra stuff dudes' talking about...Anybody that know me, if I had did something on somebody in this city, and people knew that I was accused of doing what they accusing me of right now? Somebody woulda been stepped to me about that. Like I said, Alfamega ain't never snitched on nobody. He done lied on somebody, but he ain't never snitched. And we ain't even gotta say Alfamega, 'cause y'all got my name out there now: Cedric Zellers...You do 85 percent of your time in the Feds. I really wasn't supposed to do the whole sentence, but I got into an altercation in the last prison I was in. So they took some good time away. They gave me 60 extra days...I'm older than Tip. I'm from the Westside, he from the Westside. Where I come from, if you have a label of being a snitch, you gon' get dealt with. So how am I able to still walk around the city by myself? So, it is what it is, you know. I'm gonna make a statement too: I don't hate Tip. I'm disappointed, 'cause that's supposed to be my partner. And I ain't talking about on no business tip. That's my partner. I rode for dude, like 24/7. I put my family to the side sometimes to ride for dude." (All Hip Hop)
Tip read a statement earlier this year which announced Alfa's departure from Grand Hustle.
"Even though all of our artists and employees are asked by us to be honest and open about their past history at no time did Alfa disclose to me or Grand Hustle what has now appeared in the media. He essentially deceived us by failing to fully disclose the truth about his past and there is no place in our organization for dishonest and misleading behavior. As I've always said, you must take responsibility for your own actions, we at Grand Hustle do not support or condone blaming others for our own mistakes. I hope and pray to god bless his financial plans but I do not foresee me or my company playing the role of his personal or professional business." (File Factory)
Check out Alfamega's "I Apologize" song below: